My resolutions start off the same year after year:
Lose weight and get in shape
Spend more time with family
Save more money and spend less.
This year, I am choosing not to make any resolutions. Hahaha, it only took me 2 decades to realize that I am only setting myself up with lies and for failure.
No, this year, instead of resolutions I am just going to enjoy life as it comes to me.
Of course I want to work out more, eat better, save more money and spend less on frivolous things, but I’ve come to want a lot more. I’ve come to realize that my life is worth so much more.
Since my surgery in the middle of September, I’ve lost 4 pink sisters to cancer, a man I knew to cancer and 2 children to cancer. I’ve watched people battle health issues and battled my own this year.
Around Thanksgiving, I noticed that I was feeling a little differently. I was so excited to be with family at my parent’s house and I really missed the family that wasn’t there.
I’m a 4th grade teacher and when the Christmas break started, I walked away from my classroom with the intention of just having fun with my kids. I did just that. We slept in and stayed up late. We played games, watched movies, cooked together and talked with each other.
Now, it is New Year’s Eve and as I sit here typing, I can’t help but reflect on the year that was 2013:
I completed my first year as a teacher.
I was diagnosed with cancer for the 3rd time.
I listened to a friend’s advice and began this blog.
I found forgiveness within myself.
I found the joy again in simple pleasures.
Now, it is New Year’s Eve and I can’t help but get excited for all that 2014 will bring.
I am excited for the changes that I have already made within myself and for the growth that I will continue to try and do.
I am excited about the memories that I will continue to make with my family and my friends.
I am excited to finish my Master’s degree and put school behind me, unless I bite the bullet and pursue my Doctorate...**gasp**cough**choke**
I am excited for the bonds that I know will grow and strengthen, ones that I hope will grow stronger and the bonds that have yet to be formed.
I am nervous about letting go of my oldest daughter as she begins her own life, when I know what’s waiting out there for her.
I am nervous that my son will be entering high school in September and is that much more closer to being an adult.
I am nervous that cancer will rear it’s ugly head even though I believe that I have kissed it good bye for the last time.
Now, it is New Year’s Eve and I am ready. I will celebrate all triumphs. I will face all challenges. I will hug my family and friends tighter. I will love stronger. I will embrace all people for who they are. I will stand for what I believe in. I will face my fears.
My year is not a resolution. My life is my celebration, my joy, my story and I can’t wait to see what 2014 will bring to fill my pages.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!